Eenza Marinza's

22 hours ago

This is how it goes.

So…. I’m pretty much screwed.

People keep coming up with these lines when they see me…

“You look sad. Are you okay?”
“What time did you sleep?”
“Is everything okay? Have you been crying?”
“You look really tired.”
“How’s FYP?”

And I’ll go about with the same answer

“I’m just tired.”
“FYP’s going on fine.”

Well, darlings… I’m not just tired & FYP ain’t going on fine.

You see. I’m more than just tired. I’m fucking exhausted. I need a fucking good space for myself. I wanna sleep more. I’m freaking drained. I’m stressed up. My mind, my emotions, they are taking over my physicality. FUCK this bitch.

And FYP? God. We’re still working on our concept. It’s a good one now. I believe so. All we gotta do is settle the materials we need, hunt for them, start doing the box. Can it be done in less than 3 weeks? I fucking hope so.

Other than all that, well, things has not been pretty nice with love. Why? Cause I can’t seem to share with him the pain that I’m feeling & even when I know what to say to make him understand, I don’t want him to have the thought that I’m being whiney. Oh, and just in case you see me sitting in class or at the canteen with you, not eating, well, mummy has not been giving me allowance due to the fact that dad has never been consistent with supporting mummy financially. So, SCREW you jerk.

Notes: 1 / 4 days ago

ate-thin.

It just ended a couple of hours ago. Six more baby. :)

I’ve never believed that I’ll stay in a relationship for so long. I thought that it’ll never happen, that l-o-v-e is not real. You proved me wrong. You taught me the true meaning of l-o-v-e & because of you, I learnt to love & I enjoy the love I’m showered with from you. This 18 months has been AWEZ & I believe it will remain to be. OR, it might just get much much better than AWEZ. ;) Because of you, I’m not ashame at all to be cheesy & go about saying how much I love you & telling people that I can see you in my future. & definitely not ashamed of announcing to friends that we love each other so much, we’ve planned to get hitched. :) I adore you.

Nobody can love me the way you do.

Well, it was a pretty much nice 18th, except for the ending, where we had a small lil argument. Darling. I thought you would have known that if I do not eat that something & have annouced that I ain’t eating it, please, don’t force me. I know I was the one who suggested having them, but since it turned out wrongly, I don’t want any of it. I want to enjoy my food, to eat them cause I love them, not cause I’ve got no choice. You get me darling? I’m sorry I made you mad cause of that. :(

P.S. I’m mentally & physically tired.

Notes: 85 / 5 days ago from tiresome